Well I'm sorry again. Not sorry to you, but sorry that I've believed you every time you say sorry. To me, sorry means that the mistake won't be repeated. But I guess that's just for me. And I've been naive, thinking that everyone would think the same as me.
Recently I've realized how far apart our worlds are. And I've been trying and trying not to think about the differences in our lifestyles and characters, but time and again you just keep reminding me. It's really difficult to trudge on and smile when deep inside it's eating me.
I don't want to end things like before, I hate hurting people. I really do. But honestly, I don't know how long I can keep this up.
Perhaps it was a mistake from the start, thinking that there was something everlasting between the two of us. And if it was, then it was a selfish mistake.
But then again, ever since we got together you've changed so much. Either that or I've become so much more sensitive and attuned to every emotion and word you say/feel. And maybe you can't notice, but I've been hurt. You've been doing so many things that you didn't do in the past, and I'm thinking it's my fault. I've changed you. Not in a good way, it seems. And when I see these things, it pains me.
I warned you that there were wounds not yet healed, scars not yet faded. But instead of aiding me in recovering, you numbed them for a moment and tore apart new ones.
It's both a gift and a curse, I realize, being able to see emotions rather clearly.
God, what should I do. I'm lost.
posted @ 1:31 AM |
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY.
it seems that the teachers of my current school like to pick on me even more than the teachers in secondary school.
WELL, FUCK THIS.
today i pon one lesson, the stupid H1 math teacher make a big fuss, like he always does, just because its me.
say he want to report principal and expel me. even if i get expelled, i'll make sure i'll break your teeth, you fucking bastard.
bloody asshole. and he's not the only one.
PE teacher also whole day like to pick on me.
I AM GOING TO FUCKING OUTBURST SOONER OR LATER.
my patience has a limit. sure, do what you want. i'll take it all in. but when it goes overboard, don't blame me.
I'VE NEVER HATED A CERTAIN JOB SO MUCH IN MY LIFE.
posted @ 9:48 PM |
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
well well well. it has been a long time, kenned-z.
haha. i've just been having so many thoughts in my head recently. and well.. remembered that i have this blog!
i think no one comes to this blog anymore, so i'm just going to random my way through, like i always do. ;)
today is the 12th May. which.. should be significant to me, as it's my birthday. But.. i don't know.
Happy Birthday doesn't feel right.
it feels so ironic and sarcastic when people said that to me today.. okay honestly, don't get me wrong. I know what you all mean. haha. i am touched by what you say.
but.. it's just that. i absolutely don't feel happy at all today.. so many things screwed up my day. so did things the day before and many months back.
so.. i was reading through my old posts. and i went to see how i celebrated my birthdays the last 2 years.. Hmm. I realised. I really really miss TK and my friends. I know i was the one who couldn't wait to leave TK. but i regret it, for TK was and still is my second home, in my heart.
i really really miss my friends there. )': in JC.. i don't know. there're so many weirdos and fake people. these people with all their masks. it's just so.. unexplainable.
I wonder whether i made the right choice in going to JC.. really.
i feel so alone. so worthless. like a spec of dust on the whiteboard. so unloved. so ignored.
BUT! i still have my friends backing me up! and i thank god for them. these people whom god have brought into my life, bringing light with them, expelling the darkness in my life.
I am grateful for them, and i want to thank them for being in my very life, which is so insignificant.
especially you. I don't know what would have happened to me if it wasn't for you.
I probably would have given up and walked away. you were my shining star in my dark night.
In my darkest hours, i would squint for the hint of your hand, to guide me through my darkest nights.
when you fell ill, i prayed that i would be willing to suffer anything, as long as you wouldn't have to. and i thank god for healing you.
however.. that doesn't change things. i'm still insignificant. and i know i have no chance. so i just want to say, hopefully one day you can feel what you mean to me.
signing off, botak-head. )':
posted @ 11:07 PM |
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Well hey hey hey! hahahah. well tonight was the Farewell Party for TK band batch of 2009. heh. its like the official night of step down. whoosh. haha the sec 4s like didnt really dress up for this event.. probably was because just last night was Graduation Night? heh. well done to the juniors for preparing such a great farewell party! really enjoyed meself. :) took photos, heh. they're all on facebook. i won't be posting any photos on this blog, sadly. im lazy :P so yeah, if u wanna see pics, they're all on facebook. haii. its like the official night we sec 4s step down. feels.. weird. because i know i'll never stop being a TK Band member. heh. still, it's gonna be different from being an actual band member. okay what am i talking about hahahah?! tmrw there's church.. and then on Monday there's alumni band prac. hmm. but ee zeng asked me to go with him to a job interview. darn. which should i go to? OH YEAH. I JUST REMEMBERED. THAT DYLAN PHOTOSHOP SO MANY OF MY PHOTOS AND USE FOR HIS GAMESHOW! @#$%^&*( basketcase. heh. but it was good, i have to admit. heh. he quite pro la. AND BASKET THE JUNIORS KEEP SABO-ING ME TO PARTICIPATE IN THEIR GAMESHOWS. but it was a fun night. definitely a night i would remember. THANK YOU TK BAND. seriously, i would never regret joining band. it's what moulded into what i am today. haha forgive the sick parts, that's my own doing. :P but yeah, being a QM really taught me many stuff. and up to today, my biggest goal in life is still to be the best senior i can be to my juniors. hmm. wonder if i've achieved that at the end of my 4 years. heh.
Well hey hey hey! hahahah. well tonight was the Farewell Party for TK band batch of 2009. heh. its like the official night of step down. whoosh.
haha the sec 4s like didnt really dress up for this event.. probably was because just last night was Graduation Night? heh.
well done to the juniors for preparing such a great farewell party! really enjoyed meself. :)
took photos, heh. they're all on facebook. i won't be posting any photos on this blog, sadly. im lazy :P so yeah, if u wanna see pics, they're all on facebook.
haii. its like the official night we sec 4s step down. feels.. weird. because i know i'll never stop being a TK Band member. heh. still, it's gonna be different from being an actual band member. okay what am i talking about hahahah?!
tmrw there's church.. and then on Monday there's alumni band prac. hmm. but ee zeng asked me to go with him to a job interview. darn. which should i go to?
OH YEAH. I JUST REMEMBERED. THAT DYLAN PHOTOSHOP SO MANY OF MY PHOTOS AND USE FOR HIS GAMESHOW! @#$%^&*(
basketcase. heh. but it was good, i have to admit. heh. he quite pro la. AND BASKET THE JUNIORS KEEP SABO-ING ME TO PARTICIPATE IN THEIR GAMESHOWS.
but it was a fun night. definitely a night i would remember.
THANK YOU TK BAND.
seriously, i would never regret joining band. it's what moulded into what i am today. haha forgive the sick parts, that's my own doing. :P but yeah, being a QM really taught me many stuff. and up to today, my biggest goal in life is still to be the best senior i can be to my juniors. hmm. wonder if i've achieved that at the end of my 4 years. heh.
posted @ 1:39 AM |
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
honestly.. i think you're full of shit.
posted @ 8:39 PM |
Thursday, October 29, 2009
so.. english and emath has been not bad i guess. haha despite not studying much. okay well maybe for emath i practised. ^^V
shit man.. for mousehunt im being raped in mousoleum. -.- basket. last time can catch so much. now kena rape.
today and tmrw i got no exam!! :D coz i dropped amath liao hahaha. All the best to you amath-ers today.. and tmrw.
i got 4 days break!! :D but then the next 3 days are gonna be hell.
Geog, SS, Chem, Physics, and D&T all packed into 3 days. can die sia. all so content heavy. if dont study sure die one. but.. just cant seem to sit still and study. HAII!!
srsly doesnt feel like O Levels. zzz
which may be a good thing ahhahaha. so.. after the 3 days of exam, i got 7 days break!!! going "shopping" muahahahaha~!! then after the 7 days.. one last paper: science MCQ.
SECONDARY SCHOOL COMPLETED. :D
YAHOO. SLACK TIME BODO. gonna play basketball everyday. LOL.
just cant wait for that day. gonna be damn tired though. straight after MCQ got 3 days of class chalet. then got 3 days of band batch chalet. then few days later Grad Nite. then still got band farewell party. HAII. how to play basketball sia. LOL.
ah well. nvm. it's gonna funnnnn. ;)
P.S. I GOT A NEW BIKE!!! :D
my original one got stolen, screw it. -.-
posted @ 1:03 PM |
Thursday, October 22, 2009
argh. o level science practical was shit.
and i still havent really started mugging hahaha. screwed big time baby. (:
and it's been reaaaally boring.
i miss band. ):
posted @ 8:58 PM |
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
OMG. THE HAIRDRESSER CUT MY HAIR SO FKING SHORT. ):
and peeps, surprise surprise!
i made a promise to ban myself from the computer, starting tomorrow, 14th October, until the end of O levels. poor me );
im so sad. no computer for a few weeks.
AND O LEVELS IN LESS THAN 2 WEEKS HOLY FK I DIDNT KNOW. i was napping in class, when suddenly teacher said next week O level practical, and next next week O level.
I AWOKE WITH A JUMP, HOLY SHIT!
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my dear juniors pls pray for me ;) i love you people.
posted @ 7:40 PM |
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Lemme tell you one time: girl i love, girl i love you.
One time is a nice song. ;)
posted @ 2:04 PM |
Saturday, October 10, 2009
haha 16 days to O levels, and i went for alumni band prac. hey sec 4s + TK Band alumni, pls come for prac when ur available.. haha we need clarinets especially. (:
we have approximately 6 more practices to the concert, including the O level break. :O
please be more active!! haha for sec 4s of course after Os must chiong liao la. must not let Mr Siao down. and we also need to give the juniors time to prac for their outdoor, which means we must play more songs for concert, so they practise less concert pieces, relieve their stress!!
okay advertisement done. hahahahah.
only 6 ppl turned up today LOL. me, michelle, faizah, ian, jet, and "patrick's brother". HAHAHA.
and yeah, left 6 practices!! omg. btw next week no prac haha. deepavali. i think mr siao was upset just now.. because last week no one turned up. ): darn. must have been disappointing. if it was me i'll be damn pekcek mann.. sorry mr siao ):
anw!! 16 DAYS TO Os, AND I STILL HAVENT STARTED MUGGING. crappy niggle shits.
i still wana cycle on my bike. hahahaha. dad buy me back my bike quick pls. WALAU. i havent cycled for months sia, coz my dad kept cycling it to go to work. so i placed it in his care. when they went to malaysia, i thought they locked it outside. end up they didnt, and because i was alone at home, it became my fault that it was stolen. how is that fair? zzz
and he says that i dont even ride it, so why bother buying.. ZZZ i dont ride it because he's always using it whaaat. walau.
HAII. Os faster finish. i want to start work. and start a life. and start a family. and start my motorbike. and start having babies. and start whatever lies in store.
okay this post was crap bye. ;P
posted @ 10:39 PM |
Friday, October 9, 2009
gahh.. today feels like such a shitty day.
morning was woken by a irritated mum. coz she was sick and yeah, moodswings uh. then went to school.. HAII. had physics first, where i don't know why, but i just couldn't keep awake. zzz.
during the break i just stayed in class to just try and sleep? lol but in the end couldnt sleep. maybe it's just gotta do with the teachers' "soothing" voice hahaha.
then had chem, where i dont know why but i felt weird. hahaha. but Mr Tan still rocks ah. I'm gonna miss him when i leave TK man.. next break was slacking in class again..
third session was MT, so the non-MT students went to the audi for free period / english mugging period. Audi is a nice place (: i miss my QM duties man. zzz
after school everyone was chionging home to mug.. so yeah no choice haha just go hme too, where someone i really don't like was at home.. aah i shall not mention it here.
but anw, something has been on my mind for a long time..
i miss my fking bike ):
i want to get on it and roam tampines and pasir ris all over again, just like i did in primary school, everytime i had something on my mind, or everytime i'm unhappy. in TK i just don't feel what i did in primary school, where real bonds were forged. something's missing. both inside and out. i know you ppl wont understand what i'm talking about hahaha. but nvm. just let me gibberish. i'm scared and confused at the same time. one's coming, and one's staying. i'm just damn lost. so darn lost. and i cant talk to anyone about it, because its just so damn complex and retarded. not to mention random. maybe this is why i can't focus and start to study for O levels. yes, i havent started. i guess its just too many things on my mind. i constantly have this feeling like i want to do something, but i cant figure what it is. is that right? I have a feeling it's gotta do with my bike. somethings missing. my mind's just messed up and im feeling so vexed. i feel like im lacking something essential. something i need to move. i'm just feeling so weird nowadays. like im still sleeping. i smile like usual, i laugh, i joke. but it just feels so distant. inside i dont know why but im feeling so dead. and i dont know why but the world doesnt seem as beautiful as it did before. aaaah something's really wrong with me.
i miss band ):
posted @ 5:26 PM |
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
okay i know i so should not be here.
sorry for not posting for so long. hahaha. I've been busy with... nothing. :P
school has been.. sleepy? nothing much to do, with truncated coming right after Prelims.. I surprised myself with my prelim marks man.. Coz i know i didnt study at all.. which is why i feel guilty when i see ppl like GM who mug like hell and got slightly lower than me..
okay that sounds damn ego.
k nvm. moving on... i wanna play basketball! but recently i've developed this weird rash on my skin. possibly due to an allergy? What allergy? i dont know.
but anw, due to this rash everytime i start to feel hot i start to itch -.- so mum says lay off ball. LIKE HELL I WOULD HAHAHAHAHA.
a-math.. i'm dropping. FINALLY. got the form, got the parents' consent. Well done Kenneth. Just make sure you don't regret this in the future.
I don't want to regret anything either, but i can't tell the future, so i'm just doing what feels right.
18 days to O levels. I just know i can't work my amath out in time. And i also know i would need to start studying for my other subjects soon. Principal, VP, and HODs all telling the sec 4s to start mugging, if we haven't.
everyone i've talked to seem to have started. Why haven't I?
not good not good...
must start soon.
K on a lighter note. TODAY!!
GM took my calculator by mistake and scared me LOL.
k i dont really know what to blog abt hahaha. just too many things to even type out. One thing's for sure, I think i'm gonna suffer in JC.
i know many ppl will be like: O.O Kenneth going JC?! WTF?!
i know.. even i get that reaction. LOL. but then, parents dont let me go poly la.. zz.
NVM. now i listen first. waaaiiit till 21~~~
then i'll be wild. hahaha.
k for now after O level i go mad liao. CAN'T WAIT MANN. and guanming made me realise that my 2nd last paper is 7 days b4 my last. :D
It seemed just like yesterday we got together, you and I. I remember setting eyes on you just outside the shop, when the man pointed at you. I remember being mesmerised by your beautiful body shape and your beautiful skin tone. Gosh you were enchanting. After making the payment, I immediately stripped your outing casing and mounted you. Do you remember the ecstasy of me riding you in public?
And now.. we have no choice but to be apart.. I know I'll miss you, but its just so damn easy to get another ride better than you. darn that guy who took you away from me, but i know he wont be as good a mounter as i would.
Goodbye, my dear bike. I wish i had locked you outside my house, so that ass wouldnt have stolen you. ):
ALL THE BEST to juniors taking EOYs and to sec 4s for Os!!!
posted @ 9:11 PM |
Friday, September 11, 2009
everyone's changing so much, so fast..
do i even know you anymore?
posted @ 7:23 PM |
Sunday, September 6, 2009
life's been rather funny. been seeing quite a lot of drama in TK haahaa..
i know i've been giving slip shod updates recently, coz im just too busy, either playing basketball, or having classes, or im just watching anime :P
anw.. i went to alumni band prac ytd.. and guess what: only 3 alumni showed up. me, shichun and michelle. so since we were already here, we might as well join the main band..
the reason i went, was because i thought, "if i didn't go, then what if only a handful of alumni went, not enough to make a full band? all of their time would be wasted in coming.."
and so i went.. to be disappointed. =.=
ah well.. at least band was interesting.
anw.. im just gonna post some overdue photos, jsut for the sake of colouring my black blog, which i rarely update haha. wow just realised that blogger's photo uploading became VERY FAST. despite everyone complaining abt how they cant upload. o.O weird..
my cousin -.- HAHAHA.
at the karaoke last saturday!!
potato singer. HAHAHA.
pang face so funny! HAHAHAHA.
erina, pang. EH THE ROOM GOT TOUCH SCREEN SONG CHOOSE THING SIA!!
zheng da guanming.
he was lying on our bags!! DEAN -.-
act cute -.-
posted @ 5:48 PM |
Thursday, September 3, 2009
still not in the right mindset for exams, and prelims tomorrow. best..
still playing too much basketball, and i cant stop!! oh no..
how how how. i need another distraction. heheheh.
posted @ 7:22 PM |
Friday, August 28, 2009
feels so long since i've blogged. been reaching home rather late hehehe. the plan was to do night study in school., after playing basketball at the CC.
unfortunately, due to uncontrollable desires, after playing basketball, we reach the school at arnd 7++ -.-
the dinner also like almost finish LOL. so we go into the library.. take out books.. and i dont know why, but i just cant settle down and study -.-
and i've recently started to play mousehunt.. hehehe. and unexpectedly, i'm doing quite fine!! haha tyco. but isnt the game mostly tyco?
basketball basketball basketball. love it coz it takes my mind off stuff. HEHEHE.
and tmrw got alumni band prac!! jac if u read this pls rmb to go LOL.
kk.. off to anime. ciaoz.
posted @ 4:52 PM |
Monday, August 24, 2009
night basketball rocks.
and still have to add stuff on F_lio -.-
and someone's groaning coz his mum's gonna screw him for going home so late. who ask him nvr do work play basketball. xDD
just some random photos uh...
My service award!!
check out the name yooo
this one abit blurred uh. i always have a murderous look, and andrew has a "wtf?!" face. xD
dno how to smile sry. hehehe.
posted @ 9:25 PM |
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
alright, time for a little proper update.
k today. hehe slept at 2 last night, (as usual, for the past whole week), and woke up at 5.. hehe 3 hours of sleep is definitely killer in the day.
so i went to school.. took 67 to haig market bus stop, and almost overshot coz i was sleeping.. THANK GOD Mr Ngoi woke me up on the bus.. haha he took the same bus.
still, i was late for school -.- 6th time this term, and 13th time this year. haha i dont dare to add in sec 1 - sec 3. HAHAHA.
so yeah, tio detention uhh..
and so.. the great day started, all because of your smile. ^^
yea.. classes were so-so, other than the occasional lectures from mdm halilah and stuff.. and then i finished up the last parts of my D&T, and prepared for binding.. NGEHEHE.
at 1145, 4J was like chanting for mrs hwang to let us go to collect our chinese result. then finally, we stood up, and like ytd, roared "THAAAANK YOUUU MRS HWAAAANG!!"
xD 4J rocks.
most surprisingly, much to teachers' surprise and many other friends,
MY O LEVEL CHINESE GOT A2.
then had english -.-
then had some assembly program where cops came down to tell us abt crime prevention and stuff.. i think TK was reaaaally uncooperative uh. the cops sorta got annoyed with the talking. but yea.. somewhere all us could improve on? i mean, at least be more enthu la!!
then after school went to detention.. then went to CC to play basketball!!
darn. today was really the best, just because of that great start.
posted @ 9:45 PM |
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
today was a great day, cancelling out the occasional moodswings from someone..
but srsly! today was fun like hell in school man.. and on another note, i just need to add in a few more things, and I'm gonna get an A1.
tomorrow gonna play basketball. yeaaaa~~
posted @ 7:30 PM |
Friday, August 14, 2009
what a week. been playing alot of basketball ngehehehe.
i'm loving it, and detention's kinda fun too. yeah.. been late loadsa time -.-
and my mum's making fun of me -.- what "hi junior, how's senior?" wtf...
completely retarded. but yeah. welcome to my house LOL.
i need to D&T!! but i still wanna play more basketball ;PP
and now my mum's singing. pinoys. -.-
posted @ 5:38 PM |
Monday, August 10, 2009
have i mentioned that my pinoy cousin is in my house? HAHA.
i wanna play more basketball... darn darn darn.
and he pwns. LOL. together, we pwn more!! :PP
posted @ 3:10 PM |
Thursday, August 6, 2009
yoo.. sorry dudes for not updating the blog so long..
been sorta busy with D&T. but not to the extent of being yisong. that bugger hasn't slept for 2 days, resulting in major spasms -.-
but anw. school's been random luhh.. lessons actually seem more interesting LOL.
been playing basketball again!! =DD and i still miss band-.- expected.
yeah.. had an amath mock exam earlier today, i think most probably another F9 is on the way. HAII..
D&T should be coming on fine, i hope.. darn. right now my main priority is to secure my D&T. then i'll use the remaining time to slog for the other subjects. If work hard.. should be able to be okay ba, O levels..
heheh. I'm looking forward to it mann.. end of slogging. but sadly, really sadly, also marks the end of our journey at TK. which also means the splitting of everyone.. haii.. surely everyone will say "we'll keep in touch.." but then.. with everyone in so many different JCs and Polys, i think sure will lose contact.
HAII.. nvm that. haha. when the time comes then talk.
somethings pissed me off today, but i shall not talk about them here.. bloody cowards. Got balls to throw shit at us but no balls to stay there.
posted @ 10:49 PM |
Friday, July 31, 2009
YAY tomorrow sec 4s got band prac!! ^^
haha.. hopefully can play inst. darn. but it's been already smudged by that choi dick. ARGH..
nvm. haha. praying can play....
dno what to blog abt at the moment.. except D&T is tiring. darn..
posted @ 6:36 PM |
Monday, July 27, 2009
yoo. haven't been giving proper updates.. so here's one that i can do now hahaha.
life's been very hectic, what with rushing for D&T and teachers hounding us sec 4s for work and after-school classes. Not to mention the detention!! aaargh.
anyway, i just wanted to say.. I really miss band mann..
I miss everyone there..miss my section like hell.. miss annoying hong wan.. I miss playing my trombone..
HAII.. Just can't wait for alumni band prac to start.. then me and me boner will be reunited!! =DDD
on saturday had english prelim oral.. boring thing. then went with yisong to ong jin's house to do folio.. haha his house is cool!! s'been long since i went to a friend's house.. haha.
ytd was INC's 95th anniversary.. as usual, had the thanksgiving at pasir ris.. hehehe.
took loads of photos -.-
after that mum wanted to use the M1 deal for movie, so we ended up watching Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince at EHub..
aah.. i think the movie wasn't as good as i expected it. Horny movie tho AHHA. but it cancelled out the exciting parts!! darn.. hopefully they wun cut anything from the 7th movie.. heard that it's being split into 2.. so yeah. should have loadsa space for scenes. ^^
aww man i still owe mdm halilah her ACS(I) paper and the stupid plywood thing. FOOK!!
I don't know why I was smiling at all. HAHA. me n empress dowager..
bugger and dowager. terrors.
little terror interrupting shot.
and jasmine vandalised yisong's folio today!!! ^^
posted @ 8:39 PM |
Saturday, July 25, 2009
posted @ 5:22 PM |
Friday, July 24, 2009
wow it's been 5 days since i returned back to school, and I haven't even had the time to update!
darn. proves to show how busy I really am.. D&T everyday, and added with every single piece of thing from other subjects..
Monday got Chem test. best. ARGH!!
and I'm still not done with D&T. But i like it tho. haha doing folio is quite fun. just need to be able to sit still and focus.
sry for the lack of photos in my blog.. I'll make up for it soon, when I'm free-er hehe.
tomorrow got Prelim English Oral!! and somehow i dont care about it-.-
been playing basketball in school again.. yay!
posted @ 10:36 PM |
Sunday, July 19, 2009
some photos that i owe yisong. HAHA.
oh no i'm going back to school tomorrow.. frightened of the homework, tests, and D&T. God Bless Me.
k now i find out that this sickness only comes to me at night. GG.
posted @ 8:35 PM |
Saturday, July 18, 2009
just bought harry potter and the deathly hallows!! yessa!!
met jiahao and sinta and one sec 1 boy at tampines mall earlier.. haha other than jiahao, the 2 boys look like P4 kids. LOL..
anyway.. i know most of u will be thinking, "wah, this guy must be joking. one moment so sick one moment can go out."
true. my "ailment" of terrifying nausea is very unconstant. One moment i can be quite fine = able to walk, move. BUT NOT TOO MUCH!!
but the other, like now, i'll be zapped of energy. Lying on my bed, in COMPLETE AGONY. gosh. i can't describe the pain in words man..
last night was like one of the worst. i puked thrice after blogging. and i already had nothing to puke. but my body just wanted to force something out of my stomach. and my mum insisted i had something to eat.
everything she gave me, the moment it entered my stomach, it all came out to the toilet bowl 2 minutes later. it was AGONY man.. having an empty stomach, yet having to retch. dont know what came out haha. maybe the stomach acid?!
someone end it.. I really wonder if i can make it back to school on Monday.. zzz
posted @ 6:44 PM |
Friday, July 17, 2009
after so many days, tho my temp's waay down, i still feel very sick!!
take now for example. my fingers are trembling terribly, and i feel super weak. currently very nauseous. = want to vomit. dont know why. earlier in the afternoon mum went to work, so i was left at home with bryan. had porridge for lunch.
dno why, but after eating nausea just took over. couldnt take it, so i went to sleep. now i wake up, just 20 mins later the nausea's back. darn. wtf is wrong with me..
days at home have been.. i dont know. feels very long, yet feels very short. i dont know how to explain what that means. i've lost track of time and have no appetite to eat.
it's like, i sleep. when i wake up, it's like im in a dream, because after i sleep i forgot some of what happened when i was up, unless it was really simple.
everytime i go out of the house.. i'll be overcome by giddiness and i dont know what. oh yes i hate nausea. dont understand how pregnant woman can take it. poor them.
thanks for the concern people.. been receiving lotsa wishes!! haha. thanks thanks.
been resting at home.. sleeping most of the time. can't do nothign else. aw damn the nausea's back!! shit..
k i'll end this post here. can't think of what to type. the putrid smell of the bile is constantly in my head.
"let it all end.. make it stop.."
posted @ 7:32 PM |
Monday, July 13, 2009
~trying to reach out to you, touch my hand..
reach out as far as i can..~
haha funny but catchy song.. 987fm is playing it right now. haha. miss listening to radio..
anw.. going to have a hell of a long break at home.
lemme tell u bout my VERY EVENTFUL DAY!!!
woke up rather late.. then took 10, despite the risk of me being late.
WAS LATE. but wasnt caught O_O no teacher around sia when i entered school..
so went to class.. had a slight runny nose..
then felt myself getting sicker and sicker..
then at 12.20 took temp, 37.6
mdm halilah sent me down to the quarantine area.. saw desirene the expert girl.. then mr leong keep pumping us with water.. then keep taking temp..
after like 20 mins he take, my temperature 37.2 so he sent me back up to the audi for amath lecture..
go up.. in like 10 mins i take temp again, my temp go back up to 37.6.. so mdm halilah sent me back to the quarantine area..
!@#%*(@W#RT&*&^%$#@#$%^ funfair sia TK staff..
then mr leong take temp again, then say im okay. send me back up to audi. FOOK!! i dont want go disturb lecture again la..
then mrs poh came.. i explain to her.. then mdm so money (xDDD) came and then because i got flu she sent me home...
shit!! my dnt!!
then the mr leong best. say i must have a parent to accompany me home. O_O. so i wait for my dad to come.. from 1 o clock wait till 2.50pm.
best. by then my temp went up to 38.2...
went for lunch with dad and bro.. at haig market, afterwhich took 28 home.. slept the whole journey.. really not feeling well..
nauseous, headache, head pulsing, giddy, runny nose, whole body aching.
reach home, try to sleep. despite the fan being off, and i was wrapped in blankets, i was shivering in cold..
and i still felt like vomiting..
mortal torture.. mom came home at around 6 plus.. measure temp.. 39.2..
went to doc.. he said i'm a suspected swine flu victim and that i should stay at home for a week..
my D&T is screwed.. and the band perf on sunday!!
my last band perf.. my step down...
screw my life. oh wait, it's already screwed.
and tcher say MOE won't extend the DnT deadline..
posted @ 9:00 PM |