i just read nigel's post. and i really agree. sec 4 life sucks. seriously.
like him, my mood's been really bad too. just scolded my brother coz he was being a stupid nuisance bugging me to create some stupid game account.
and he cried -.- just coz i scolded him. with a nasty side that i don't want anybody i know to ever see.
yes, i know that alot of you will go,"wah this guy damn bad sia. make his younger brother cry. what a bastard."
well, newsflash. i don't care.
like i said, i've just been in a spate of bad moods lately. its like what nigel said, fluctuating. its the extreme of both sides. some times i'm just so high, then suddenly my mood is damn bad.
some people are not helping at all, being such irritating fkers. i'm not referring to my bro.
dunno what's happening uh. i'm also like damn sleepy now. maybe that's what's contributing to the bad mood.
since 2009 started, i've been like sleeping ALOT in class. almost every class. proven by my previous post -.-
but really la. even the slightest of things put me off nowadays. like, the way u talk to me. the way u look at me. the way u respond.
i dunno. even body language, tho not directed at me, can piss me off so bad.
but still, i'm keeping it all inside. coz i know if i ever lose control, sambadi gana getta hurta rrreal badd. (adopted from Russel Peters. LOL.)
like i said it before, just because i'm smiling, doesnt mean i'm happy. just be careful with what you do.. especially YOU. you've really been being a piss in the pants. a real prick.
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so... today. had double geog elect, where i slept -.- mrs chen was being real understanding by not shouting, just tapping us gently to wake us up. by saying us, i mean that alot of other 4J pl were sleeping haha. but could tell she was losing her temper. lol.
then had double amath, coz mr rizal went for a course and then our PE lesson was taken by amath... which i think... is really bullshit.
PE is one of the very rare times where we get to really destress with all our classmates and have fun together. Now it's just wrong to replace it with a subject that isnt very enjoyable.
I mean, is it that difficult for a relief teacher to take us for PE? wth right?
had chem, where i was literally dozing off tho it was quite an interesting topic.
math, where mrs hwang was really angry coz nobody was doing their work. and i was also dozing off.
had double english, where me and nigel slacked -.- and then siddharth made a speech to the class about his trip to his hometown, Mumbai.
quite an interesting speech. heh. i still have no idea what to do for my public speaking next term -.-
then had assembly, where i had to go for some EV session. met Bobbi, and crapped around at the back of the classroom..
had DnT test which i absolutely did not study for.
and even before the test started i was like pissed off really badly.
i merely like asked whether we needed foolscap for the test. YOU NEED NOT SHOUT AT ME. LIKE WTF. U ANNOUNCED, WHEN, LAST WEEK?! ITS BEEN DAYS RIGHT? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO REMEMBER THAT. IS IT THAT DIFFICULT TO ANSWER A SIMPLE QUESTION WITHOUT RAISING YOUR VOICE?
so didnt have any mood to do the damned test. i'm prepared to fail. anw, my class sure will have more failures than 4F and 4C. because, both the other classes had lessons before this test. whereas for 4J, our classes are on thursday and friday, and the test was today. so yeah, less revision than the other 2 classes.
really needed to get out of the gloom of the classroom, so after the test immediately grabbed my stuff and hauled.
automatically went to the basketball court to play with yong ming and the others. don't think i played well these few days.. its like when i play i seem to be distracted or something. cant focus.
then cleared court for school team..
i watched them have practice from 3rd floor. haha. miss those days as a sec 1 when i had bball practice. i was dying from the running. LOL. but it was fun, and i really enjoyed myself. besides, i still think band is more tiring.
i still rmb sec 1 lor.
its like on monday, wednesday and friday got bball practice. then tuesday, thursday and saturday got band. so only sunday i see sunlight in tampines. coz i leave early in the morning, when its still dark, and i reach home at around 8pm, where its also dark.
LOL.
and.. when there was basketball practice, i come home, take a bath, and play com. but when there was band practice, the moment i reach home, i drop dead on the sofa and fall asleep immediately. yes, that was how exhausted i was then.
dunno why either heehee.
hmmm.. dunno what else to blog abt. oh and ee zeng says he saw something spooky happen behind me on the bus just now. LOL. ah well. shan't say it here.
till then... i'll be hoping for a miracle. one with you and me in it..
