gahh.. today feels like such a shitty day.
morning was woken by a irritated mum. coz she was sick and yeah, moodswings uh. then went to school.. HAII. had physics first, where i don't know why, but i just couldn't keep awake. zzz.
during the break i just stayed in class to just try and sleep? lol but in the end couldnt sleep. maybe it's just gotta do with the teachers' "soothing" voice hahaha.
then had chem, where i dont know why but i felt weird. hahaha. but Mr Tan still rocks ah. I'm gonna miss him when i leave TK man.. next break was slacking in class again..
third session was MT, so the non-MT students went to the audi for free period / english mugging period. Audi is a nice place (: i miss my QM duties man. zzz
after school everyone was chionging home to mug.. so yeah no choice haha just go hme too, where someone i really don't like was at home.. aah i shall not mention it here.
but anw, something has been on my mind for a long time..
AAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
i miss my fking bike ):
i want to get on it and roam tampines and pasir ris all over again, just like i did in primary school, everytime i had something on my mind, or everytime i'm unhappy. in TK i just don't feel what i did in primary school, where real bonds were forged. something's missing. both inside and out. i know you ppl wont understand what i'm talking about hahaha. but nvm. just let me gibberish. i'm scared and confused at the same time. one's coming, and one's staying. i'm just damn lost. so darn lost. and i cant talk to anyone about it, because its just so damn complex and retarded. not to mention random. maybe this is why i can't focus and start to study for O levels. yes, i havent started. i guess its just too many things on my mind. i constantly have this feeling like i want to do something, but i cant figure what it is. is that right? I have a feeling it's gotta do with my bike. somethings missing. my mind's just messed up and im feeling so vexed. i feel like im lacking something essential. something i need to move. i'm just feeling so weird nowadays. like im still sleeping. i smile like usual, i laugh, i joke. but it just feels so distant. inside i dont know why but im feeling so dead. and i dont know why but the world doesnt seem as beautiful as it did before. aaaah something's really wrong with me.
i miss band ):
